To keep my memories alive;

Monday, 29 December 2008
10:40 pm

Alhamdulillah, FYP coming to an end soon. Basically, life been a bit better for me as i did managed to get to know a new friend from ngee ann poly. All this could not be achieved with the people around me helping me to move on to the next stage of life. As I’ve been haunted by the trauma of the previous problem. I would like to say thank you to those who help me out all this while. These are the band of brothers that i respect in life. Helping each and everyone when there are problem. And i was shortlisted for ERS. The interview will be on 7 Jan which is next week. Pray hard that i’m able to get the job as it means a lot to me. This will decide whether i can complete my degree by late 25. Graduation is about 1 month away. I always pray that i graduate on time.
Getting to know a new friend from ngee ann. Giving the opportunity to find the replacement of the lady that left me a year ago. I was depressed of what happened a year ago. Giving me all kind of plain excuses of unable to be my companion due to the situation that we are facing. But allah was show who are in the wrong and who are in the correct position. I didn’t knew that the lady that i love with my whole heart sincerely are so cunning and also cruel behind my back. A friend told me bring myself together and never look back on what happened. I did managed to fight this problem. After getting to know this lady from ngee ann poly. We both had the same thinking and common grounds. Met her up last week for lunch and we do some catch up with each other. Curiousity in me is that a lady asking a man when was his last break up and also don’t intended to have another relationship again. Whatever happens i would not hope for her. As i had a rival which is in the same school as me. Maybe i foreseen that see will go with the rival of mine. If this happens, i took a step back and we’re only friend. Every person on earth has the right to fall in love. Same goes to me and also other people around me. Finding the real companion that can really understand you is hard. It takes time and effort. Always bearing in mind is that let time tell who is my companion. Meeting my best friend this wed as we didn’t met for quite sometimes. To do some updates with him. So till here then.

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Monday, 1 December 2008
12:53 am

currently, life been ups n dwn a bit. basically, due to FYP stress of team mates nt cooperatin n deadline is just ard e corner. dunno what's result of this sem FYP. i do really need a pass badly 4 this fyp as it will delay my graduation if i fail. nt in a gd shape currently due to some reason. a bit dwn mentally. i just wish 2 grad quickly fr rp n leave all those bad memories behind n gd memories stayed with me. sometimes, i do reflects myself y this things happens to me. in term of r/s, career n studies. i still remember those were the days i was devastated by the incident of me breakin up with my gf. e regrets n sadness in me. devourin me up in darkness. bt like what a fren told me this is nt what we wanted bt its destiny tt we must accept. askin me 2 bring myself together n nvr look back on what happened. its a pain of goin thru this again n again. sometimes, i'm just get sick n tired of all this. all i just want is 2 hv some1 special in life who r honest, sincere n faithful. mayb allah has his reason of y i go in this track full of challenge.

at times, e obstacle tt i faced was unbearable. i did strived on 2 make sure tt i'm able to move on 2 e next lvl of life. i prayed hard everyday tt allah will destined or meet with e lady tt has honesty, sincerity n faithfulness in her. till her then

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