It’s been lately i’ve updated. Was bz with FYP n etc. LIFE?? omg, i was like bein haunted by my old childhood nitemare n memories tt i’ve been thru. Sometimes, there r confusion in me bout what i’ve been thinkin. Dunno what r they. Been tryin 2 figure it out. Mayb bcos of what i had did durin my childhood days. Simply is tt my childhood days r nt tt njoyin. I did get in2 trouble durin those days. Those days where i was foolin ard like a maniac. Bt sometimes i just wished tt i had a better life like other kids. Allah gt his reason y i faced e obstacle tt he laid out 4 me. Mayb success wait 4 me at e end of e rd ahead.like some ppl says 2 me. Go on ur own way n u will find e path of success. Sometimes, i’ve been tryin my very best to find alternative route2 achieve what i want in life.

Some ppl says life is beautiful, bt 4 me life is full of shit sometimes. When u faced e obstacles. E pain tt i’m goin thru nw sometimes makes me feel demoralised what happened last time. 1 of e mistakes is tt i gt in2 r/s. It was my fault 4 gettin in2 r/s when i know tt my priority was 2 study get my diploma. This had been hauntin me in my mind most of e time. Sometimes, i just dun understand y this all must happened 2 me. I just started 2 see e light in my life again bt it turns dark back again. Nt once bt twice happened 2 me. Most of my r/s ends with a 3^rd party involved. I wonder y this kind of ppl would do such things when they know tt it is wrong. Is this a retribution 4 what i’ve done last time. Mayb it is in some ways. Bt i accept it. even though e pain tt i go thru is like a knife goin thru my heart. E other party r njoyin what happened 2 me. Bt i’m tryin 2 b patience bout it. a fren told tt e relax u r in a complicated, e more e person will b unstable. I’ve been wonderin y tt person gt e cheek 2 ask me whether i could wait 4 6 yrs if she wants 2 b a doctor. Hw m is supposed 2 wait if tt person is nt honest, sincere n faithful 2 me. Y, can’t tt person just b frank n nt deny things. I can’t accept it when i saw it in front of my eye n tt person still can deny it. Makin stories bout me tt r nt true. Come n faced me like a man if u dare. Dun just go ard make stories bout ppl tt r nt true. Is this hw u potray urself as some more in certain areas. Critics ppl n makin story bout them. Always bear in mind tt humans makes mistake. It just a matters whether i want 2 play tt person out anytime if i wanted to. There’s no point of tt person cried in front of me. E tears tt i wiped off, tt wet on my shirt & dropped on my hand is just a crocodile tears. Both of them didn’t keep 2 their words. As human beins, i gave chance 2 ppl 2 prove who they r in life, bt they abuse it even though some of e ppl surroundin them didn’t gave it. it’s just a matter of time b4 u pay e price 4 what u’ve done 2 ppl ard them. Bt patience is e key 2 everythin. Lucky 4 me it alls end quickly b4 i suffer more in e future.

Lately, my temper has came back since e last time round. I’m scared tt it will affect e ppl surroundin me. I’ve been figurin out hw come it came back. I’ve been lettin go of e anger in me. Bt sometimes things r nt what they r. Been tryin 2 ctrl my temper so tt i will nt turn 2 e dark side. Like what in a movie says bout e path 2 e dark side: anger leads 2 hate, hate leads 2 sufferin. so allah show me e path 2 e light side of life. so tt i could lead life as happy as possible.