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Wednesday, 16 January 2008
2:47 pm

It has been a while since I updated my blog. Sch goin 2 end in 2 wks time. There are a lot of things in my mind currently. Sometimes I just can’t understand y I’m always faced a lot of obstacles in life. Even though e prob r surroundin me, I will try my very best 2 solve it in e effective way. Even though some of e prob still unable 2 solve. 1 of e prob tt I faced was helpin a fren of mine. Lately, I had some quarrel n misunderstandin with ppl ard me. I’m just tryin 2 help a fren who r in need of helps bt other took it wrong. I dun understand y human being like 2 jump 2 conclusions in life. Helpin a fren in need meanin tt u r helpin tt person with sincerity n honesty. Some ppl gt it wrong bout me. ppl thought I’m 1 sided. Bt I was on neutral ground bout this prob. Some ppl r just born b matured n some r just plain childish. Bt I can’t blame this ppl as this is e creation of Allah. bt what we can do it tt 2 change 4 e better in life. Some ppl say life is beautiful bt 2 me life is full of struggles n obstacles. As I had went thru a lot of hardship in life. Based on my xperience. Bt ppl ard me help me 2 think positive in life. Like in my earlier entry achieving somethin in life is nt easy as I think, even if I succeed it’s a hard life. Sometimes, I dun understand tt just bcoz of 1 small things conflict happened. Regardless in term of what. Its sad 2 see if u’ve been frens 4 quite a long time n end up becoming enemy. To me, this kind of ppl r nt up 2 e lvl yet. I wonder whether this kind of ppl can accept e fact of life. Things tt came n left our life. Things tt came in2 our things has its reason. Same goes 2 e things tt left us. At 1^st, I was unable 2 accept tt my X left me 3 yrs back. Bt upon enterin Honeywell as trainee, I was bein taught on hw 2 think n xecute thing well. I was bein shot right at e face by my senior tech when I can’t accept e fact tt my X gf left me. sometimes we r just nt fated hv something in life. Like a phrase nt all e things tt u want in this world u can get.

I had asked helped fr a fren of mine tt time. Issue discussed is bout my old prob. She give 2 option 2 choose. Use e brain or follow what ur heart say. So I elaborate 2 her 4 both option. If I used my brain, It will make me become wiser n mature in thinkin. Bt if I were 2 follow what my heart says, it will lead 2 e devastation of my life. Its e same of what I’ve been thru e corp last time. e corp trained n groom me 2 be responsible n man with integrity in life. Some ppl says I’m childish n egocentric. Did they mirror themslef b4 they say tt 2 me. Even though we r e same age bt what I can tell is tt where were u when u r 15 yrs old, what portfolio u hv if u want 2 say tt, what were u doin at 130am. Some of this bugger r studyin n njoyin life with their parent $$$. Bt I was out on e street n street fightin 4 my life just 2 survive in this world while other teenager of my age drawin pocket $$$ fr their parent. I went thru hell 1^st then others. Bt y ppl would like 2 really pull status n ego on me. I’ve worked with professional’s n big shots b4. N I was bein recognized in MNC n considered as young talent there. I went thru hell session when I was in e corp at 130am where ppl r still sleppin. Bt what u hv 2 say tt 2 me. boast bout e job tt pays u a bit more. I can always say tt 2 ppl bt this means I’m pullin status on ppl. I was nurture in a way tt I would nt offence ppl ard me. Even though, I was a street child last time. Bein a street child makes a big different with normal child. Ppl would say tt this kind of ppl who nt make it in life. Bt I prove ppl ard me wrong. I worked my way up 2 where I’m 2day. I feel e satisfaction in me achievin it. There’s no easy rd 2 ur target or dreams. Some ppl r nt worth my attention. I mean those idiots or buggers out there. Sorry 2 say tt “U R JUST NT FIT OR RCH MY LVL 2 SAY I’M CHILDISH, EGO CENTRIC N ETC”. I alr feed my mum with my own $$$ when u still drawin pocket $$$ fr ur parent.

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Sunday, 6 January 2008
8:44 pm

Well, 2day was suppose 2 go 4 kangaroo trg. Bt end up cancelled due 2 Kye was dwn with fever. So plan cancelled n carry on with my slp. As I had work e whole day. Just imagine fr sat morning till 2am at nite. Bt overall was fun. As most of colleague challenge me 4 e no of order send by individuals. So try n make a guess? Who emerged as e champion? Suprisinly, I emerged as e champion as I send e most order. Just imagine fr mornin till 5pm then I managed 2 consume my food. I bought my food fr outside as I’m sick n tired of mc food. As I comment 2 my RM. EVERYDAY EAT BURGER, FACE ALSO LOOK LIKE BURGER. Tt was what I feel when everyday consumin e same food at mc. So I had chicken salad rice. It was nice as there r chicken, red bean n also mayonnaise. I guess among all this while, I think this is e gd food so far as it makes u feel full n also feel satisfied. So I woke up at 12.30 2day. As I was totally shaggedout fr yesterday workin fr mornin till nite. When I think back, I 4got 2 eat my amino acid 4 full recovery of my body condition. So woke up n washed up. Then informed my mum tt I’m goin out 2 buy food 4 myself. as my mum didn’t prepared breakfast 4 me. so make my way 2 Alif restaurant. Thought of eatin with my rider fren bt didn’t managed 2 as e system 4 MDS was dwn at e other hub at bt batok. So all e order in bt batok area was divert 2 my hub. So e whole system was full with orders n e riders went in n out of e mc. In e end, I ate alone. So I say 2 my fren nvr mind bro understand tt u bz. So had mee rebus n relax with some of e riders there. It’s gd things tt I try 2 socialized more with ppl ard me. knowin more pl makes u more wiser n matured in thinkin. Like what I asked a fren of mine bout my prob. She asked me 2 options. Follow ur heart or use ur brains. So I listed e consequences of this 2. If I were 2 follow what my heart says, it will lead 2 devastation of my life. Bt if I were 2 used my brains n think, it will make me matured in thinkin n wiser in facin prob. Bt 2 me, still need 2 get over it. It will take sometimes 4 me. Like what happened 2 me few yrs back. I think tt I shldn’t b angry or cursin y I was given e path of sufferin in life. Mayb allah wants me 2 feel e sufferin path 1^st then e easy path. Same goes in everythin in life. Like what ppl ard told me when u move on in life, u will see e differences of what u’ve been thru. U will reflects back on hw u managed 2 become some1 successful 2day. Like my senior tech said 2 me nvr hv e jealousy in me when seein other ppl who r in r/s. there will b some1 4 u just b patience. Like what my mum told me, u hv 2 b very patience in facin e obstacles in life. Whether in workin, studies or even r/s. I guess tt ppl ard me help me 2 shape myself in2 a better man.

Time flies fast enough 4 me. n e time has come 4 me 2 faced e odds n truth of my life. It may b unbearable 4 me bt what I can do is leave my fate 2 allah. bt I’m lucky 2 hv ppl who I considered as blood bro’s thru out my journey in findin n changing myself in2 better man. N this is e ppl who push me ard all this while n keep me movin.

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Friday, 4 January 2008
12:16 am

This morning woke up at 9.30. See e watch n I say 2 myself tt I’m runnin late 2 meet my fren at east side. E reason is tt promised him 2 accompany him 2 Ah Boy shop. If u r askin what e shop sell is plainly bike accessory n parts. He’s been very eager 2 buy motor cover. As e reason is tt he’s servin NS in few days time n also his bike seat get wet when it comes 2 rains. So gt up fr my sleep n quickly washed up n get ready 2 meet him. So start e bike n go off 2 meet him. So managed 2 rch his plc on time. e suprisin things is when I rch there n called him n his reply was I didn’t get his msg. I told him tt I nvr get anything. So he came down quickly n meet me. so we talk 4 a while then move out 2 where our destination. So we went 2 ah boy by PIE since my poor fren didn’t know hw 2 travel thru s’pore tt much. So travel thru PIE n then access thru bendemeer rd. when I passed thru tt rd it reminds me of 4 yrs back. Where I was still at ITE. Tt is e rd where I used 2 travel n passed durin those days very morning 2 sch. Sometimes seein things bout e past will reminds u where u started n hw u managed 2 b what u r 2day. I still cherished those days n life was back then quite easy then. So bypass e rd n head 4 ah boy shop. Along e way my fren really give his full blast of throttle of his bike n I open my throttle n tailgate him. So I told him tt if ppl r sayin bout aunty shop is this 1. Suprisinly he know tt. Bt hw come aunty shop he know bt nt ah boy shop. Weird I guess. Ok, rch ah boy shop n we went in2 wrong junction. We r goin against e traffic flow. Lucky 4 us we there’s no TP. If there is, we goin 2 get our iicence both revoke 4 just 1 stupid thing. So my fren buy his bike cover n I survey e helmet there n suit since I wanted 2 play motorX. So aft tt, we went 2 another shop n asked e gear price. So I roughly know what r e prices of e gear tt I need 4 motorX. Then fr e shop, I split fr my fren n went 2 seoul garden 2 eat. Since there a student meal price, I took e advantage of eatin. E last time I ate seoul garden was 2 yrs back. Just imagined tt u pa 20 bucks bt eat very little in e end. E reason is tt it’s fastin mth. U know lah ppl who r fastin dun eat tt much. So 2day became a mass monster n esat all I can. So aft eatin, I went 2 do window shoppin as I think tt I need a new wardrobe. My jeans r tearin apart n so is my shirt. Plannin of getting a new clothin next pay day. So at e same time find a picture frame. Thought of givin it as present 4 my fren 4 his bdae. Bt too bad didn’t hv e type tt 1 wanted. Mayb can find another plc or even hv 2 customised it. so this is just plannin only dun know what r e actuall product or present tt I wished 2 give my fren.

So aft tt went 2 Hajah Fatimah mosque 2 pray. Aft prayin went 2 beach rd n survey e clothin there. There this shoes which caught my attention. So asked e price n quite reasonable I guess. So aft surveyin e cloth then I’m off 2 hm. So rch hm n kiss my mum. Then e 1^st things she asked is where I go. I told her tt I went 2 bike shop 2 accompany my fren buy some stuff there. So rest n when Kye msg me tt there’s a team meet up session. E location is Simpang bedok. I was cursin as if I know I shld just hang out at east side or went 2 my bro plc or my cousins plc n chill out there. So meet e team n discuss what r e latest things. Every1 is changing bike 2 DRZ. Last time e bike which I wanted 2 buy was coloured by e team. Nw every1 is changin 2 it. so we talk bout our childhood time. what we gt 4 present 4 bdae n pass exams. N I asked Jack whether his parent had set his career path or nt. he said no bt I told them my mum did bt my dad dun. Bt whatever it is, I’m still with my decision of my career choice. So split fr there at 10 xactly n head 4 hm.

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