Yest, went 4 trg as usual. Left immediately aft tt n meet up with e misfitz. So went 2 Jln Asas as it is central 4 everybody. Bt I split aft tt 4 e moment went 2 Jhr 2 pump my petrol n change Khai throttle cable. So managed 2 get it change bt nt e standard throttle, it is e fast throttle 4 TZM. So I told my mechanic can also because he says tt nowadays seldom ppl usin standard throttle as e demand 4 fast throttle r high. At e same time, buy e spark plugs 4 Kye as this sat they r goin 2 ride again preparing 4 next 08 race season. So aft getting all e bike parts, I make it a fast 1 2 get out of Jhr. So my team was still there at e plc where we meet up 2 discussed bout few issues. Normal, race n registering ourselves as legal society or legal organization. E reason is tt so we didn’t get int2 trouble with e law.

So everythin went on b4 n aft l left 2 go 2 Jhr. So suddenly, e team talk 2 me. Y I like 2 keep things 2 myself. e reason y I like 2 keep 2 myself is tt I don’t want 2 bother ppl bout my prob. So jack speak out n say we r team. Just don’t b shy in sharing e prob. So I told them frankly e reason y I went 2 Tampines 4 2 days str8. I feel tt I shld nt lied bout e things tt I do. It’s nt bout privacy bt it’s just bout honesty n integrity. There’s a frens of mine who I treated him like a father, e reason y u can know e things goin 2 happen in advance bcoz u’re honest. I feel tt I’ll try 2 be as honest as possible. So I told them tt I talk things out with my some1 special in my life bout our situation tt we faced. So I told them e prob shld settled nw. so e discussion went on bout myself 1 things Jack n Kye noticed tt I like 2 keep e prob 2 myself n also e anger in me r burnin. So I told them what happened 5 yrs back when I was in sec sch. Where I gt e mid crisis with my dad. E mid crisis happened due 2 favourism in family. Tt’s where e prob arise so they talk 2 me n give me some advise n tips2 settle it. so I told them I alr settle with my dad with tt prob. Tt’s where I told them tt I started 2 walk on my own 2 feet w/o my father supportin me. I told them I was rebellious tt time of what had happened. So they told me 2 loose up a bit as I was quite rigid fr what they observed. So I think I’m lucky 2 get this kind of ppl who r ard me n help me at e same time 2 shape myself in2 some1 better in life. Nt only them bt I owe e D’fy n also my foster mums who helped me durin e dark yrs of my life. Ppl who encouraged me 2 further my studies n also helpin me givin me some hopes of getting on with life with e failure tt I faced.

Like Jack says tt time bout my feelin 4 some1. U can run bt u can’t hide bro. so what he is tellin me is correct. My feelin 4 some1 was still in my heart. Even though we r nt 2gether nw. as I had talk things out, tt day I told her tt my feelin 4 her will nvr fade away unless I find some1 like her in my life currently or in e future. I went thru 4 yrs of hell since 2002 till 2006. I jealous bout my frens havin a gd R/S. spendin their time n showerin their love 2 their special 1. Bt what happened 2 me was a nitemare as I failed again in R/S. every sec of my life, I was askin myself y I fail in R/S. bt till nw e ans could nt b found. I thought I was out of e dark when I found her bt situation makes me fall back in2 e dark again. Every sec of life I was searchin e true meanin of life. In shaping myself better person in life. Currently, e pain in my knee starts 2 come back again due 2 motorX. I snapped my knee last sat n e pain started back. My frens advise is 2 consult e doc 4 knee. Bt i'm tryin bt 2 bz 2 go n consult e doc.